juz back from genting..
not really enjoy..
coz there thin trouble mi..
u all might be disppointed
i wanted to help too..
but all this is all i can help..
now i have to support myself..
next yr i wan to study n thin..
sch fee n thin..
where i get.. there a pro..
i dunno u all really understand or nv..
but nvm la..
since u all already think of mi like tat..
so let it be..
u all say tat i'm selfish..
but did u all think?
i juz clear all my money..
1800..
n i want to start a new life..
i pull through so hard juz to clear all e money i own ppl..
n juz wan to start afresh..
so many time i think of other end up i get into trouble..
but u all noe..
dunno..
juz for once i think for myself abit cannot?
izzit a worng to think for myself for once in my 21yr of life?
do u all go through those day when u really have no money to eat..
n u reach home wanted to eat but there nth not even a pack or maggi mee..
no family member around..
juz all alone..
n have to worry abt tml livin...
n thin fall at e same time too n thin..
n there no one to help but urself..
u all say u all understand.. but how much u all understand?
when my dark day where u all..
u all r not there...
yet now got pro i juz pay a little lesses yet give u all say til like dunno wat..
n puttin all e blame at mi..
u all say play all play together n thin..
but b4 u all say this u all juz think abt it..
when u all go out enjoy how offen u all wil really ask mi..
onli when bore den wil ask mi along..
u all can do de thin y yet i cant?
u all can go holiday..
i juz go gentin yet get say...
wat is all tis..
y am i being treated so unfair everytime...
since u all wan to end it..
i have nth to say or do...
i wil juz fellow e will..
n to u 3...
juz take care of urself ba..
mayb this is wat i can say n nth more..
watever thin i say u all wil have u all de own view n thin to say..
so there no point i sayin anythin..
all e best to u all...
n if u all think i enjoy myself in gentin den u all r wrong..
mon
went malaysia wif jo germ germ mum n jo bro..
went to alot of farm..
n eat alot..
tue
went work..
after work rush home..
den meet qin n shan..
den take bus to gentin..
reach there around 3plus mid nite..
den book hotel..
den went walk around..
den went back to rest at e hotel..
next day wake up..
went casino..
lost 30rm at e jackpot
but rong shan worst den mi..
den after tat went play black jack..
i use 10rm win 100plus..
wanted to contiune de..
but they wan go le..
coz we bein stayin at casino v long hour..
so take e token go change into cash..
den go eat..
n do a little bit of shoppin..
go back to hotel room after tat..
n they r tired..
so i rest awhile..
i went to another side de casino again..
n this time i lost 60rm..
den c c awhile go back room le..
den slp..
wanted to brim back e casino token back for jo jan n bee de..
n buy them some stuff..
coz there sell many cute cute thin..
but.........
nvm..
next day wake up..
baht den eat maggi mee..
so poor thin..
coz we no money le.. =x
den bath..
den go walk walk around den wait for bus come back..
mean while..
guess who i saw..
haha..
i saw wendy....
den she go first coz her bus was there liao..
den reach singapore aound 10plus..
when come down e hill from gentin..
like nv endin wan sia..
keep turn n turn n turn...
til i giddy...
guess this time i have to pull myself up again..
when my life den will be smooth???
today wake up at 3plus..
den watch show..
til 7plus..
den go bath
den went down to e wat again..
den c my fater jump e monkey..
wil post e vidoe soon ya..
den sit there tok to my mum fren..
haha..
she wan brim mi go malaysia n tailand..
haha..
den crap with her lo..
den 12 they burnin n house n thin..
have to threo e paper n thin.. den at there walk round round..
den take my ah ma n aunt e wat go burn oso..
around 1 den finish..
after tat go mac eat wif my auntie n cousin n e gf..
but i nv eat..
den after tat my cousin fetch mi go geylang meet rong shan they all..
after a while den go back liao..
noe dun go..
haha..
coz ma fan ah long send mi back..
if not i ask my cousin st8 send mi home .....
tml sat dunno wat to do..
i free tis few day.. so ppl brim mi out..
hahahaha...
and i decided next yr go back to study..
haha..
i wan go shatec n study...=]
but still thin wat coz to take..
pastry n bakin or culinary or restaurants n bar or leisure n tourism..
dunno lei..
any advise ppl..
haha...
today..
went to do set up den go back le..
after doin go eat with mei jing den go home..
fall aslp at e sofa.
den 5plus wake up..
went to parkway..
wanted to buy e puma jacket de..
but end up nv buy..
den when to prayer..
meet my mum..
den my second aunite was there n my cousin n e gf..
den bai my auntie n ah ma..
haha..
den walk round.. cross e wat..
after tat..
i wan to ask e god thin..
haha..
den i take number..
end up my cousin gf n my second aunt oso take..
my turn..
i juz sit down den e god c my name den start to say liao..
say i v hot temper n thin..
dunno wat...
den ask mi go study another 2 yr..
den wat my life is better while studyin den work..
so i have to an my heart down first he say..
now everythin oso dun wan to to..
lol...
den i wanted to ask when i wil get marry de..
but hor.. pai seh...
haha..
before my turn i tel my mum my auntie they all.. they was laughtin at mi la.,.
haha..
n today i finally saw.....
my father another side de children le n e wife..
kns wan sia..
haha..
e nur er i tot hao mei is she..
haha.. but i think i am more pretty den her.. hahaha..
den i keep sayin la..
they all at there laught..
somehow she look like my 4th auntie de nur er..
both kns de.. hahaha.. =x
got e moon face...
haha... lol...
after tat my cousin send mi back..
reach home b4 open door..
i burn e fu tat they give mi...
thay ask mi to do so..
so i do as fellow.. haha..
think tml going again... =]
saw my mum fren oso.. haha..
den i disturb her la..
nv go eat seh le ar..
coz i stil remember last time they brim mi go malaysia they seh..
haha..
she ask my mum wan go thailand ma..
den i say i wan go my mum dun allow..
haha..
dunno how many ppl told mi today..
got money muz give my mum some..
alamak sia...
tis yr birthday was really sux..
but stil have to thank jo jan bee sherry shan shu ren n ah long was there tat nite..
went to pub..
n e waitress was sux there..
omost quarrel there.. den sherry stop..
drink quite alot tat nite..
dunno...
blog tml ba..
anyway thank to those who wish mi too..... =]
wah fuckin de angry sia..
wat e fuck..
today actually v happy at work de..
coz of my birthday..
den suddenly got a fucker cal..
ask mi who am i.. v sia lan..
den i say yin jie..
den he pass to a cb ans..
den she say y i got her bf number..
den i stun la..
den i reply how i noe..
den hang liao..
after heng.. den i think..
oso funny they cal mi ask y i got e num...
should be i ask y he got my number..
so nvm..
den complain to mei jing..
really v bai song..
den finsih work reach home..
e cb cal mi den i nv ans..
den she msg mi hai happy birthday..
den i reply her..
hai wat hai. go die..
den she cal again..
i nv pick up..
den i use y house phone cal back..
wah..
she tok til v sia lan to mi..
like my fault like tat...
den she explian e thin to mi..
den i was like den den den keep den her..
den say her..
next time check properly liao den call la n thin..
den half way e fucker ans e phone..
tok til v sia lan..
ask wat i wan..
den i say him.. say le den ask wat he wan n thin..
really angry sia..
21 birthday mood juz get spoil by them..
n hello.. to u two..
mayb birthday is nth to u all..
but hello.. is my 21 birthday lei..
not 18 19 or 20...
i noe u two pass u all de 21 liao so wat..
cb..
dunno la..
first time birthday so angry..
n stayin at home...
oso dunno tml they celebrate wif mi ma..
if nv den nvm ba..
oso dun really have e mood liao...
all thank to e two fucker..
hai...
argh...
today when work nth much.. was late for work..
haha..
den e GK auntie complian when i reach say wat got one customer dunno wat dunno wat..
haha..
den i work upstair today. coz king kong off.. haha..
den keep run up n down lo..
stupid mei jin..
when goin home tat time in lift come disturb mi den alot ppl..
wat finger finger den she go make my butt..
she heng e lift is full if not i sure make her..
den when pasamalan buy thin eat..
den shuren n shan saw mi hey cal mi i nv ting dao..
den they cal mi..lol.
den shan slipper spoil..
den blame mi la..
haha..
den when to find them at coffee shop..
den ahile chee hon wei teck dom n lian hau come..
so sit down there n tok..
crap sia wei teck..
stil so nonsense he tok den we laught like siao..
haha..
den after tat mi shan lian hau went classic..
den jo come find mi..
after tat mi n jo go eat..
wanted ask shu ren fetch us go de den jo dun wan..
so we walk to katong..
after tat walk jo home den i ownself walk home...
sian tml so many ppl off..
gk auntie khim maggi..
onli left mi n mei jin..
somemore tml mi work down stiar den mei jing work up stair..
sian..
fri..
a suany day for mi.. keep kana scold..
siao. wan..
haha.. den after work go play mahjong lose money..
coz of e cousin fren damn kp la..
haha...
sat sun think nv go anywhre..
today..
i'm back to parkway work..
but onli for one week..
haha..
alot ppl see mi all say u r back..
all v happy to c mi..
lol..
have to work full tis whole week..
sian..
today mornin do set up 6 bin below..
after tat yan ping ask mi go do andy de bin..
den i went up..
andy car kana bang ..
haha..
sale is bad today but GK n goldlion quite good.. sian..
thier thin all cheaper den mine...
was bore at work..
den i keep run counter..
keep go up n down..
den go find khim..
den e GK auntie disturb mi la..
dunno wat she go tel e cashier den all come disturb mi..
omg.. after work den went bugis meet qin sherry rong shan chee hon n shu ren..
eat steam boat..
after tat actually wan go drink de..
but chee hon n qin dun wan.. so all go home..
den shu ren going drink alone at home..
n think my birthday i die le sia..
they sure gang up make mi de sia..
qin say wat v long nv c mi vomit le..
so on tat day i have to be smart sia..
if not die.. alot ppl wan give mi drop..
god bless mi sia..
i have run out of cash...
money money come come come....
haha..
dunno...
money money faster drop down...
spend quite alot tis two day...
omg...
wed after work went home den xin yuan cal mi ask mi out.,.
coz her fater rent car for her..
so went meet her..
den after tat go fetch her fren den go her fater shop fecth her dad den we go eat..
after tat send her dad back den we go catch prawn..
haha..
but mood was spoil..
coz her fren quarrel with her boyfren..
den awhile we go le...
den dunno e bf run go where so in car wait for him n thin..
mean while i drive e car round e car park..
lol...
fun...
should faster go take my lic le..
think go take bike first den car..
coz my bro goin to amry soon den can ride his bike..
haha..
den stay over at xin yuan house..
den next day pei her go return car..
after tat cab home..
reach home bath le..
den go meet sherry n qin at bearh road..
buy a slipper n fbt from there..
after tat when bugis..
buy a belt shoe top n dunno wat..
spend 100plus sia..
den around 7plus went home change..
den tiff come find mi..
den 10plus when to boat quay celebrate qin birthday..
got mi sherry tiff shan qin n shan fren..
haha...
reach le den stuck awhile thinkin which pub to go..
they wanted to go e dunno wat de pub.. but was full..
so end up go white bar...
coz xing li workin there..
den i n tiff go walk e whole boat quay lookin for cake..
damn e tcc close so early..
so end up i buy a bunger den put candle..
lol..
damn pai seh sia,,
den xing li was like laught at mi.. haha..
den jo n jan was at another pub..
den jo drink til drunk..
hate she like tat sia..
so i go pull her over with mi...
lucky jan was like..
omg..
den 3am e pub close den jan send jo home..
den after tat i n tiff go find her at her house there..
still can meet mei bao drink..
angry sia..
den around 4plus brim her home..
den mi n tiff at her house wait til 6 den leave her house with her mum..
den her mum tok to mi...
haha..
reach home den slp..
again..
so many ppl cal mi...
den all i nv ans.. haha
wake up at 6..
den xin yaun ask mi out..
den went to her father shop meet her..
wah..
fuckin tired now sia..
when cycle..
from bedok to xin yaun house..
thank to her la..
but was funny on e way..
den help her fren to take all her thin from xin yaun house ..
wah like dunno wat so many thin..
den cycle back at jan house behind e big drian there..
wah my phone n cigg omost drop in sia.. heng.. nv...
den reach e fren boy fren house den i cab home..
tml workin morin shift..
sian...
anyone got job intro mi...
really fuck e GM sia...
knn...
feel like goin to office complain to boss sia...
den tok to zack..
i tel him i dun wan to work de..
den ya lo..
den i say i go work goldlion den he give mi e dissapointed face..
haha...
think mayb going to shi qi shi fu there work..
go learn to cook n bake cake..
lol...
today is a bad day...
suay keep kana scold..
afternoon b4 go work zack cal mi den kana scold..
coz i late for work..
den reach work..
start to do e AD return..
be4 do i asked e buyer whether i can return e AD shirt den i display feraud shirt wan first den he say can..
stil say v good...
den after awhile a fucker come socld mi.
siao wan..
so i dun care contiune with it...
sian..
today e ful timer come do nth.. everythin i do...
like fuck sia..
den 6plus start to move all e shirt in e new counter...
den i hang e pant..
quarrel wif e fucker...
i fold my way den she wan i half fold..
den nvm..
again i go ask e buyer..
he say my way of fold is rite..
den again e fucker come kp...
like fuck wan sia..
til my gm come..
den i dun care..
i juz walk away go take thin..
den she complian to gm say wat i unhappy dunno wat..
den i shoot back i go take thin wat.. siao..
lol...
sian..
tml alot thin to do...
zack got thin to tel mi again..
got a feelin kana transfer again...
dunno...
if transfer mi again mayb i dun wan work liao..
fuck de sia..
everythin ask mi go clean counter le den transfer mi away...
omg..
n is not i dun noe u well enough...
i juz wan to treat u hard..
i dun wan to be so soft hearted anymore...
n dun say u use to tel mi everythin.. u nv... nv ever...
tis frenship become like tat u juz have to blame urself..
is u destory it de....
after tat cal u scolded mi...
u let mi lost e trust n everythin...
i wil prove to u n even jan to c.....
n becoz of u...
u make mi lost trust in alot of ppl....
alot of thin u have done wrong but yet u din realize it...
hope u wil wake up after my leavin...
many thin i dun have to say til to clear...
anyway..
jia you in ur life..
n be strong...
ni hao ma???
omg...
suddenly u come across my mind.. =[
6month plus nv contact u le..
how have u been...
everythin fine???
wan msg u but dun dare..
hahaha...
*miss
actually....
my birthday i wan u to celebrate with mi de..
but think think...
hai shi bu yao better...
hai...
it ok ba....
all e best to you...
now u got stead le..
hope u wil fine a good guy ba...
all i wan to say all i have been tellin u in e past..
somehow hope u wil remeber wat i teach u n thin...
take care...
today mood quite ok la..
but when work kana scold by e staff..
they mad de la..
den i say them back lo..
so angry sia...
den mei yi tel auntie mary mi n her de pattern e smae de..
haha...
but so sad ah boy today last day in scott..
den auntie mary going soon too..
den mei yi oso...
sian liao..
tml a full timer come..
sian..
do thin muz v careful le..
cannot anyhow run le...
if not later she complian..
so bore..
tml alot thin to do at work...
sian...
quite pack this month...
n my birthday is drawin nearer le..
dunno how am i goin to celebrate....
shi qi shi qi..
faster brim mi out....
hahhahaha....
i going to die soon le...
bore to death sia....
and So Zhuo Ran when r u goin to meet mi???
meet up soon ya..
muz take good care of ur health ya.. miss you.. =)
wah...
feel like drinkin sia..
hai...
i'm really lost in life for tis few month..
my feelin have becomin numb...
hai..
after 6 month i tot thin wil be alrite for mi.. but...
dunno...
hai.. nvm..
i wil try to pick my self up...
today shi qi come find mi den wait for mi finish work den went dinner with her shi fu shi fu gf n zhuo ran ex...
den we sit down at coffee bean after dinner tok..
den e shi fu gf ask mi alot thin..
like wat i wan in life..
wat is my goal in life n thin...
den i dunno say wat.
den she say izzit i lost somethin or someone in life..
i omost cry..
den i juz ren lo..
den shi qi like tryin to change topic...
one day i think i sure wil break down in front of them de sia..
there too many thin i keep...
i'm lost of word...
hai.......
help help help....
give mi a ans man god......
y dose all this happen in my life....???????
hai....
my mood is really bad now...
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!
argh..........
juz hope after 19 20 21 after i san xin come back i will be able to stand up again...
from today on i dun wan to trust any one anymore...
no point bein a good person...
end up fuck up thin wil oway come to mi....
i wil start everythin afresh...
i noe 4yr back i dun wan go chruch....
n my life wont mi so............
i wil move on...
like wat shi qi told mi...
ppl onli grow n stronger onli after we experience it n learn to move on...
so i have to learn to move on in my life...
i gonna be strong n pull myself thur alot of thin...
i cant let all those thin drag mi back...
jia you!
today off... smile...=]
slp oso nv peaceful..
early is e mornin isatan staff call mi ask thin..
den zack call mi..
den auntie mary..
and dunno who...
omg..
den slp til 5plus wake up..
den went down to parkway pass mei jing thin..
den went meet qin n shan for dinner..
shan really v.....
haha...
keep askin us how..
got charge tat she n her ex together n thin...
den we keep repeatin ourself..
haha..
den ah pang come down..
tok sense in her oso no use...
omg...
love love love really hai si ren de sia....
omg....
y y y?????
hai...
wed goin boat quay celebrate qin birthday....
sure all drink til like shit de...
we was like tokin abt e past..
hopin tat can go back to e past life..
everyday go out juz play play play n drink drink drink...
haha...
compare to last time n now..
we got so many programme last time..
now..
all e ppl dunno die until where liao...
haha...
so irritatin sia..
ger come to mi ask mi got guy intro...
den guy come to mi ask got ger intro ma...
alamak wan sia...
i where got so many ppl to intro to...
hahaha..
think goin to find back all e ppl liao den go out play n enjoy life.. =]
take alot pic today..
haha..
all v nonsense wan sia...
and all of them abit mad liao..
haha...
all cant wait to took for a boyfriend n get married...
hahaha....
all goin to find jing gui..
haha...
dunno y all wan to took for pig yrs de guy sia..
mayb i should too...
hahaha....
wonder who will be e first to get married sia...
got a feelin is mi...
but think wont ba..
haha..
so random today..
qin ask mi stil got meet jo..
den i say nv..
going 1 month nv meet le..
den she say dun scare she turn bad or wat..
i say wont ba..
coz she hangin out wif bee n her gf nowaday..
den she say na jiu hao.. =]
see wat she tryin to do sia... hahaha..
today nth much..
work work work lo...
alot thin have to at work but juz forget wat to do..
dun care le..
tired of workin liao...
omg...
stupid today YGM auntie ask mi guess one mi yu..
stupid wan sia...
so lame...
monday have to return all alain delon le
den feruad move count n thin..
sian...
alot thin to do again..
like shit..
think le oso sian....
today e G2000 guy got accident in e morning..
siao wan kana accident stil go work...
den all ask him go c doc he say ren til at nite finish work den go c..
haha..
actually nth much to blog...
life is bore..
work go home work go home nth much...
juz take pay..
but now no money liao..
pay ah bee
pay bil..
pay this n tat..
sian....
all money money money...
god faster drop money for mi!!!!!
i wil try to let go some of e thin...
no point holdin on...
mayb is good this way...
i wil let u all c the change in mi..=]
how xin ku am i now..
i wil stil go on n do wat i should do...
omg...
there so many thin wan to say..
but
nvm ba..
dunno where to start...
really need a break...
i wan go san xin...
hai..
i'm so burden...
there no place for mi to keep thin anymore in my heart.............
after aunt pass away..
many thin really change..
indeep i have grow alot after her death...
really have to thank her e past yrs of takin care of mi n protectin mi..
really is a big lost for mi....
but i'm sorry for e thin i have done in e past n thin..
i wil really try to pull myself up...
althroght i'm born in a bad back ground
but i wont blame anyone of u all..
coz this is life..
perpher i have to thank u all...
now this home is really quiet...
not like b4...
i can really feel wat is call lonilness...
i feel so emtpy...
i need a key to unlock myslef......
and to you
guess we wont get back to e past or how we use to..
like how i use to dote on u n thin...
guess u feel all tis driftin away from u...
now u become stronger as b4..
happier as b4..
tat good...
juz dun go wrong step again....
thin change...
u n mi change too...
i oso dunno y we will become like tat...
again after u contact back yishun ppl..
thin gose wrong for us..
and we ended up like tis...
we use to quarrel everytime n thin go back to normal after awhile..
perpher this time there no turnin back for e two of us i guess..
i'm sorry
dunno..
there so many thin wan say...
but i dunno how to..
nvm...
i noe u wil act as is alright for u n thin..
n dun since to care..
mayb u really dun..
but now everythin is ok for mi too...
i wil let u go like how u let mi go...
god bless u....
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