some how miss somebody..
haha..
it like so ramdom la...
haha..
read back those later in the past.. haha...
somehow mi and the someone juz have no fate...
haa...
stil remember he wanted to meet mi out side my sch after sch..
but i went out of sch cant c him den i go off le and din wait for him to reach or wat....
haha..
den everytime go meet them he everytime not around...
wil oway leave b4 i reach..
somehow no fate la..
tokin on the phone everynite damn funny la.. haha..
and when conference romeo they all wil keep disturb us..
but now all lost contact le...
haha..
this onli can kept as momories ba...
guess haha..
dunno....
really ramdom sia mi...
anyway u r missed by mi..=)
hmmm...
so piss of somethin.. but i not gonna blog it out..
hai...
today..
i'm juz wastin my bus fare..
take train to AMK den take 138 to upper thomos..
den take 169 to yishun den take 969 to tampines
den take 38 to 201 den take 12 home...
noe take train st8 from yishun home..
can god send someone to bless mi wif $$$$$$$$$...
lol... hahaha....
omg.....
hai.......................................................................!
so moody and pekcek now...
dunno y oso...
so bore...
jo ask mi to go for a workshop in oct..
dunno wan go not sia..
haha...
shock tat mar noe i go another church...
her news oso v fast ar...
lol....
think goin pool party tml... lol...
dunno oso.. haha....
sian..
later goin interview...
hope can get in sia...
feel like tryin doin admin job sia..
but den like not my type lei..
haha....
lazy to find job sia...
help ar...
anyone got job intro????????
really broke like hell now sia..
and oct comin......
y do so many ppl de birthday fall on oct.....
so shit la.......
and i got to find job b4 those n level student finish thier n level....
haha..
nth much to blog...
was rather bore today...
read bible..
read til this verse Philippians 4:7
(the god of peace, which transcends all understanding, will guard ur hearts and ur minds...)
wat it mean..?
haha...
i dun get it..
and it keep flashin across my mind.. haha...
dunno y oso..
"be strong and courageous.. do not be terrified.. do not be discouraged.. for the lord ur god wil be with u wherever u go..."
this for my pig oink.. =)
juz reach home...
today meet shi ni at tropica..
den slip in from the side door..
haha..
den she pass mi the sandwish she make for mi..
so nice of her...
haha..
den wait for her to swim..
den after tat go sauna...
hot til i cant ta han la..
haha...
after sauna..
received msg from jo..
say she at there..
den mi and shi ni walk..
den saw them there..
dunno y we stop and u turn walk another way..
lol..
den sit at the swimmin pool side tok awhile..
and the spot us..
den jan cal mi help them buy thin..
so we went over find them...
dunno..
find tat they all wired wired wan..
like suddenly all so nice...
haha..
after tat i went parkway meet joey..
den play pool awhile
den went k box wif amenda, ah mao, jie wei, dom and joey..
after tat went to kenny house down stair
find darren shu ren eugene wei teck hong wen alvin and timo
den darren ride ah mao bike at the play ground..
den the police hon den chase..
haha..
den darren faster park the bike..
den the police keep go round the place la..
haha..
alvin kana san ban..
den eugene faster push his bike go park..
haha..
damn funny la.. like playin hide and seek wif the police..
haha..
den slack..
after tat jiu go home liao..
ya...
den received a msg from jo cousin..
she give mi a verse paslm 27:10
(though my father and mother forsake mi, the LORD will receive mi)
and her prayer for today is tat god wil guide u every step of ur way, to help u make even a small decisions in ur life...
i c le i was like...
haha...
anyway thank for ur prayer.. =)
juz do a quiz...
put the fellowing 5 animals in the order of ur preferene..
cow,tiger,sheep,horse,pig..
so i put in my order..
pig, sheep, cow, horse, tiger
haha..
signifies of the animals;
cow - career
tiger - pride
sheep - love
horse - family
pig - money
haha....
think i wil end here ba.. =)
realise alot of thin...
but guess i wont say a word ba...
anyway guess i gonna learn to be smart this time....
alot alot alot of thin i really feel like shoutin it out...
but....
haha...
and i gonna learn...
dun work for money..
and let money work for u too...
this wat shi qi tel mi...
haha...
dunno.. find tat she oway tok alot of sense to mi and wanzi wan..
haha....
nvm althougth sometime i dun like to hear..
but at least i noe she stil care.... =)
god faster send the someone into my life....=)
my birthday comin in few week time...
who gonna celebrate wif mi??
or am i gonna spent it alone?
haha.. dunno...
let wait and c...
who wil still remember my birthday...
today wake up at 2plus 3...
5plus go bath den go bugis..
at there til around 9..
head to parkway meet joey..
kns..
reach there she wan go home..
den shu ren send her home..
so i go along..
haha...
go chai chee pick alvin first..
den send joey home..
almost got accident...
after tat headed back to parkway..
slack awhile den go home liao..
rudy send mi jie wei and the who hom.. ya...
tat all for today ba....
today when FCBC wif jo and ernest..
dunno y her cousin keep prayin for mi la..
pray 4 time for mi.......
juz wonder of somethin she pray..
wat let go of dunno wat god wil plan the path for mi or dunno wat..
din really remember...
wonder wat did god wan mi to let go of???
wat path wil he make for mi?
dunno...
she pray de thin quite zu la...
dunno..
haha....
anyway juz hope everythin wil be fine soon ba....
juz deletin my mail.. and saw this mail....
The problems with GUYS:
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;
If u Don't , he says u are PROUD .
If u DRESS Nicely , he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u Don't , he says u are from VILLAGE .
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN ;
If u keep QUIET , he says u have no BRAINS .
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT .
If u don't L ove him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him! , he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;
If u do !! he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM , he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't , he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE , u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN .
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK ;
If he does WELL , it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!!
lol....
anyway...
juz reach home not long..
went to parkway..
den AMK...
slack here and there..
went k box.. too tired.. den fall aslp..
wake up..
den start quarrel wif someone..
lol....
but quite happy quarrel wif tat someone today...
lol.. haha...
oso dunno y..
quarrel til i can stand there alone laughtin at myself..
lol...
guess i have change..
if last time i quarrel wif tat someone..
i wil simply go mad and my wil become moody..
but now..
lol....
to ppl out there....
i not emo k..
and sherry chua hui kim....
pls stop all the nonsense ...
haha..
u v cute ar...
write tis comment to my bro...
"ur jie jie vr *EMO* nw adaes w0r.hahaa.d0te her m0re pls.."
wat the hell lo...
haha.....
anyway go china remember to buy
wat i asked u to buy de thin back ar...
haha..
enjoy ur holiday man....
nth to blog today...
haha...
mayb i goin to work in child care...
haha
can imagine tat...
lookin after all the children..
tel ppl ppl oso wil laught at..
i tis type work at child care..
lol..
haha...
now juz waitin for jean yip to cal mi up ba...
tis few day nv meet up wif my oink oink...
she treatin mi so cold..
sob..
but nvm la...
mayb it good ba...
i have to let go of her...=)
somethings are meant to be treasured and somethings are not!
MOVING ON!.
juz waitin for her to come back my side..
if i'm gone tat time..
i'm sorry den...
my dear friend...
you said you will leave
what can i say to you my dearest friend...
do i not hurt as much as you do
do i not know that you fret
do i not wet my pillows or isit only u who cry in the darkest night
yet i can do nothing..
cos you have choosen to run away instead of coming close
am i a lousy friend i ask
and well do u even consider how i feel for you
maybe u will never know
maybe u will never experience
maybe u will never come close to umderstand
how i feel
what i think
what i experience
when i heard the intend of your heart
when i read the blog you wrote
you seem to be gone from my life
how can i hold you back
i know i cant
only you can make a choice yourself
is it only when i fellowship with you
is it only when i call you
am i considered your friend
Please dont go my dearest friend
if only you can hear the cry of my heart within
you are so close but yet so far
I forget those hurts those pains
I forgive you my dearest friend
I know you need to live your life
I know you have your dreams to pursue
I know you need to be with him/her
I know you have your choice your will
BUT I believe
one day you will come back
one day you will be strong
one day you will understand
one day you will live out your destiny!!!
and meanwhile I can only say
GOODBYE MY FRIEND
tue
went norvna..
go jean yip..
after tat go bugis meet shi ni..
den meet tiff..
walk around..
den i went eat..
all c mi eat..
haha..
coz they eat b4 i reach..
after tat go walk again...
around 3 tiff went off..
den around 4plus shi ni went off..
den i went to find qin..
play pool wif her..
den wait for her to finish work..
den go bugis v walk..
den go find sherry..
after tat go li wei de satay shop..
eat le den headed to east coast..
wanted to drink..
but end up i dun wan drink..
sit at mac..
den sherry keep say mi la..
idoit..
say wat first time c i so so quite....
den tel qin i got alot of xin shi..
dot la...
den wat xin shi sui re zhi
den say they tok to mi i onli reply 3 word..
orh ok anythin....
den dunno wat..
den keep ask mi to tel her..
but i nv...
b4 goin to east coast..
she and qin keep sayin i bu hui smile wan..
den ask mi wat happen..
but i hack them.. =x
think first time they c i so emo..
den go acrade catch the cow..
but cant get it...
stupid la..
the stupid guy workin there...
den after tat go home le...
on the way home..
the uncle drive..
den suddenly like slow down and stop awhile..
den keep lookin at dunno wat...
den after awhile he drive back to normal speed..
den he tel us he saw somethin..
tat y he drive slowly..
today..
time was quite pack ba..
goin for few interview...
den meetin tiff...
sherry ask mi wan meet them not..
but dunno meetin them not..
and dunno wat..
like so...
1 wan to meet mi all wan to meet..
no wan meet mi den none of u wan to meet mi..
omg...
anyway goin off soon le ba...
juz hope everyday wil juz be pack wif thin ba..
so i wont think so much.. =x
haha..
anyway...
i guess i should change ba....
whether i change to worst or or better..
whether u like mi or dislike..
is up to u all ba...
haha...
i'm re-born again....
guess i should juz continue wif my journey...
i been stuck in tis stop too long...
til i dunno wat i really wan...
dream tat become so blur..
to get mi no way...
* no need mi to pull * thru in life anymore..
guess god have send someone to replace mi in * life.. =)
* *** **** ** ******* ** ** ****.. =)
** **** *** ** ** *****.. =)
or mayb from now i should juz be
someone tat have no feelin at all..=)
hopefully juz hope u guy can
c the yin jie tat u all use to c..
the one tat oway joke around..
cheer ing everyone up..
the one tat full of nonsense and crap...
the one tat wipin everyone tear when u guy cry...
the one tat makin u guy laught...
guess i miss alot of fun in my life..
everythin is juz too late now....
hmm.. nth really wan to blog...
ya...
juz now went on the way back at 201 saw tai zi..
tok to him.. den pei him wait for ppl come take phone..
den went to the mac there wait..
after passin him the phone
went to coffee shop sit..we tok..
den got ppl fight...
haha..
tok alot of thin..
haha..
den guang wei come..
den guang wei take 12 wif mi home..
in bus tok alot..
juz miss those day la..
when in sec 1 and 2..
at suntec.. after sch meet st pat guy..
i gonna have new tatoo soon i guess..
hor guang wei...
lol...
haha...
anyway ppl..
anyone wan to bet toto 4D soccer come find mi ar..
got lobang..
cigg too.. haha...
wat dose it mean..
the small girl need u...
dunno...
today guess nth much ba..
wake up at 1plus..
din go work agin...
online slack til 4plus..
went out awhile..
back at 5plus..
marg wan to meet mi..
but i nv go meet her...
den kai yan birthday..
ask mi out..
but i too lazy to go til CCK..
any way..
happy birthday to kai yan and hui ping..
hope u two enjoy urself ba...
wat the plan for tml?
i oso dunno..
guess wil end up at home too ba..
clement ask mi go zouk tml..
jess ask mi go cg tml..
or mayb meetin janelle...
or mayb meetin bee for a drink..
dunno..
wanted to brin ernest for hair cut tml..
but guess....
tml think goin to work ba..
but i scare...
haha..
coz din go work for 3day liao..
first day i msg the who..
say i wil be late..
second day i say i sick.
den today no msg nth..
haha...
dunno wat to do oso..
nowaday many ppl ask mi out..
but i rejected olmost all..
i dunno..
juz dun have the mood ba..
and i'm broke....
haha....
i'm so bore now...
there alot of thin i wan to blog..
i juz dunno where to start from and i'm so speechless..
hai.. nvm ba..
haha
going down to buy food eat...
mouth itchy..
lol...
feel rather hurt now...
tear have been flowin down once i leave jo house til now..
i juz cant stop it..
i juz feel tat i really a fool from the start ba...
tis 3ys plus..
i din ask for anythin from her..
but juz hopin tat she can change her attitude toward mi..
but wat is tis goin on..
even the money and thin...
i din ask for return...
get her thin she like and wan...
give in to her and thin..
and take up all the anger u throw at mi..
but... wat is tis...
can anyone tell mi wat is tis.....
hai...
and y do u wan make mi like a fool all this while.?
y dun u tel mi from the start?
y do u wan make mi suffer so much all tis yr??
y do u wan tel mi all tis thin at this time instead of comfortin mi..?
y?y?y?
wat is all tis?????
do u noe how hurtful it is????
can some one tel mi how to stop my tear???
the tear tat inside mi and flowin down on my eye now...
birthday is drawin near..
and i guess this is the biggest persent she give mi ba..
somehow juz wish she wil stil remember my birthday ba...
and y everytime my birthday drawin near this type of thin happen...
hai....
i'm lost.....
can someone juz pull mi up....
everythin is juz like...
y did god so unfair to mi...
give mi a broken home..
a home tat no love and care..
got mum like no mum like tat..
a home tat i suffer so much from young..
a home tat all my reletive have to ke lian on...
i dun wan anyone to ke lian mi..
a home tat i need to take up all the responsibile....
a home tat not a home!
y did god wan make mi suffer so so so much???
y!?
wat is all tis goin on in my life....
as for fren..
he give mi fren tat care for mi
fren tat come for mi coz of money
fren tat is ah beng, ah lian, guai wan or watever..
fren tat make use of mi..
fren tat is nice..
he give mi all kind of fren..
so wat it is....
i juz wan a ture fren izzit so hard for???
izzit so hard to get??
god pls stop playin wif mi.......
tis 20yr u have play eoungh of mi le....
i have take it enough...
hai..
izzit so hard to find someone tat can wipe my tear away when i cry..
someone tat can comfort mi wheni'm down?
guess i goin to do thin to ma ju myself ba..
the smile tat wil nv come back again....
hai...
here to blog again..
haha..
stupid tiff say my blog become more emo..
will meh????
haha...
yesterday and today nv go work..
kana tired...
din really go anywhere tis two day..
meet up wif sherry yesterday for dinner..
den ya..
onik...
u noe wat...
we can seem to be close..
but out of the sudden and no where..
i juz feel tat we drift...
damn tired..
nowaday like lack of slp like tat..
went eat steamboat juz now..
den on bus home saw re feng..
tok to her...
haha..
she say broadrick ppl all v happenin wan.. den i was like.. haha..
think back..
when juz get in broadrick at sec 1..
was like tio here and there..
everytime got taizi wan..
hhaha..
damn tired..
contiune blog tml...
goin slp liao...
today
went santosa..
after santosa went vivo eat and slack..
after tat went meet jo..
i haven step out of the control station she shout at mi le..
wif the kou qi she shout at mi..
is really like....
i alrealy v tired le den...
den she keep shoutin and yellin at mi la...
make mi damn pekcek and angry..
too tired to quarrel wif her and dun wan quarrel wif her..
so i keep quiet..
den ask her go eat..
den she say she wan go home..
so i juz go take mrt myself..
den i look behind they dunno go where.
den zh cal ask mi go back..
den went back find them..
alone walk to the bus stop..
in bus she start yellin at mi again..
den i juz keep quiet..
and she yell and yell and yell
socld and scold and scold...
tat moment i juz feel like droppin off the bus la..
reach le den all the steam boat close
den she juz blame mi..
is like everythin my fault like tat..
come on la..
i onli late for 10min..
if we reach there 10min b4..
it make no diff too..
den i calm myself down le i go tok to her..
the attitude she give mi tis lik....
tok to her nicely she tok back bei song-ly to mi...
den keep givin mi the stupid face..
juz dun wan to spoil the day..
go hong her but she give mi attitude..
hai
forget it...
it all my fault!
udndcaunamedmianymorurnomierefhuzoredennemedhiorejuzg
ectoulmofhinegiczm!
today went for service..
before service meet tiff..
den after tat eat den head to expo...
today jess alvin ask mi go service..
den now yi zhuang ask mi wan go back not..
tok to yizhuang...
hai..
and ya..
durin service somehow fall aslp.. =x
but end of service somehow the prayer and ther preacher say de thin touch my heart...
tear is around the cornoe of my eye..
but i juz scare to let it flow down...
hai...
juz have the fear..
i oso dunno how to say it...
really confuse...
hai...
life it juz so sux.....
i feel so hurt inside mi....
hai....
speechless........
realise alot alot of thing tis few day..
at chalet, red house and jo house...
i guess...
i guess...
i guess...
hai... nvm...
and mayb i not goin to blog tat offen le ba...
or i may juz MIA for a peroid of time...
i'm a diamond , stones or shit to u??
lol... hahahahaha....
guess i should step out of my comfort zone..
like wat jess say.. haha..
but find it so hard...
hahaa....
feel like goin back to church..
but juz cant brim myself there..
hai... dunno....
juz wan find a hidin place and rest there..
have been tried of the world out side...
wonder...
how my life wil be in few yr time...
already wasted 2yr doin nth..
is like...
i really dunno when i wil really take my first step out...
hai...
many thin r juz so shit in life.....
yesterday went to airport find jo...
on the way there germ msg mi ask mi go 85 for dinner..
den dunno wat happen on thier side den cancel?
haha.. dunno..
so long din meet up wif jan they all le..
lol..
last meet them think is few week ago??
lol...
dunno..
reach airport..
somehow i spoil jo mood by showin the pic i edit for her..
haha...
dunno..
after tat went eat..
den go her house..
watch tv..
den she in room..
nv bother much abt her..
coz somehow feel tat she need time for her self alone ba..
dunno..
den she cal mi in to test her, her SS thin..
test half way zh come..
den listen jo story lo..
after tat slack in her room lo..
den joel come..
jo use his lap top lo..
she dun wan us to c her use com..
den zh was tokin to joel abt maple thin..
den i was like..
slackin by myslef???
dunno..
after tat she was tokin to renee on phone..
den ask all of us to go in the room..
was like..
tok damn long la some more..
den i go out she ask mi in again..
somehow abit piss off la..
dunno..
den zh wait til slp..
den mi slack by myself again..
after she tok finish wif renee..
go out find her..
tok to her she ask mi dun tok to her..
sob..
wanted find thin quarrel wif her wan.. =x
but nv la..
haha.. lol..
after tat she go slp den mi..
slack by myself again..
tat how i spend my fri ba..
by slackin and drinkin by myself....
sob...
juz find somethin v wierd..
hai.. nvm ba...
shall not blog out...
haha..
shall find time to meet up wif all my fren ya..
haha..
next week meetin tiffi and wendy..
but guess end up oso like nv meet wan..
coz both are busy women!
lol...
juz waitin for qui mei to brin mi,sherry,qin and ho rong shan out tis month..
coz she say so..
lol...
v long din meet them oso le.....
and i gonna find a proper job to work le..
if not i goin to eat air liao.......
haha...
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